let's start something here

WELCOME TO MY LIFE, MR. CAPRICORN :')

is that wrong?

for those who already followed my twitter, of course you'd already know that I'm single now.
and my ex seems really angry. why did I decide to be single? it's my time to move, our relationship is useless. I couldn't hold it anymore. I became a jealous girl, sensitive and decided to be single. It got worse and more and more worse.
yes, I love him. I always support him no matter what. but yes, our differences were more bold and I knew that I should stop this. I can be a perfect girlfriend for him. I'm busy with college, school but he wanted to go out and something like that. yes, I'm not that kind of girl. day by day, I saw our differences were more bold and bold. I didn't anything to get worse.
and yes he's furious. he keep mocking me until now. yes I know, he's upset. but please I offer him a friendship. he doesn't want it. but please, isn't he tired mocking me all the time? I support him to go to Germany, I support him to be a future you chef. I'm trying to ignore all the words he said, but I'm sensitive, so what should I do?

and now I fed up. I'm don with boys. I just got a very broke heart because of Sir. but He still a friend~
and the worst thing is I need someone. yes I need a boy, I can't count on Sir, my ex just make me feel more bad and bad. I need someone who I can count on..
I need someone, God I need someone..
one more, I'm thinking to close my heart (oh my God)
God please answer me~

xoxo

holiday things

refreshment for my wall, love the blue bird so much :D

my computer screen is growing fast ;)

the right side of my bed

I introduce you "Fire & Water"

Idul Fitri holiday :D eat a lot, meet your relatives, hang out with families, wake up late (this is the best part after eat a lot :D), go to your hometown, etc. so many things that u cando.
for me, it's the right time to do my art activity. yeah me and big sister vantiani spent the time with painting!

the fourth picture is my new painting "Fire & Water". I just love the lace :)

how about your holiday guys? ;D

xoxo

WR

Adult

What is the first thing in your mind if I say, adult?

Granny?

your parents?

or even

porn?

it depends.
I might say, it's all about porn. if you enter the word key "adult" in Google, hold your libido *I'm talking to you boys all over the world.

but this time, let's just say, sometimes I hate adult's talk (for parents) especially when they talk about their children. and you have a cousin, he/she is clever, brilliant, einstein, got a science program at school.
and you're just a band member, love to hangout, socialize a lot, got a social program, seldom got a perfect score and~ yeah it's me~

my mom ever said this "arum is also not a clever girl". well I am. but it hurts until now.
I dream a lot, I did something a lot to reach it, being a positive girl all the time but I don't know why it makes me such a mess.

I've written all my dream in my diary, my notebook, my brain, my heart, my soul and my self.
nobody can make it destroyed.

tell everybody in the world, me, the next young biz girl, artist, musician, always generous and stylish (amen!) IS COMING!

ps: YOU DECIDE YOUR FUTURE, YOUR WAY, DON'T LET ANYONE RUIN IT. AND WE ARE GOLDEN SO WE CAN DO IT.

yes I'm a JERK

yes, I'm a jerk, totally. also a rude blogger. It's been a month since I take a break for blogging. I miss you so much Polka Didot. now I'm still busy for my last grade of my senior high school, so I hope I can check and talk with u guys.

xoxo

WR

jujur pada diri sendiri

I am a rude blogger, yes I am. Hi guys, what's up? It's been a very long time since the last post. yes I am so fuckin' busy now. a lot of things going on. well, I'm supposed to study now, but something really bothers me.

I have decided that, I want to quit from my music course.

violin is me, violin is my identity but sometimes we cannot do all of this things.
I will pass my grade and move on to 12th grade of senior high school. and it means that this is the time to work harder to pass the national exam. I've been thinking so much stuffs lately, and I just realized that there's to much schedule in my journal, I have to concentrate my school and I want to get a scholarship from my dream business school. From now, I really really want to concentrate only about my EDUCATION. yes, this is the first time that I felt this way.
but there's one thing that I cannot do now,

I'm still afraid to tell my parents.
so I told this to my sister, Ika and my best friends Mega & Meri.

I asked Ika, " pep, have u ever want to quit from something? but u love that thing so much?"
and Ika said " ga usah quit sama sekali. lo ttp maenin walaupun dlm skala kecil dan dikamar misalnya. tapi jgn pernah berhenti!"

after talking talking talking talking and talking...
yes my decision is clear.
Ika said "semuanya berubah sayang dan nggak perlu jadi super dan bisa melakukan semuanya kan?"
I asked her again, " am I wrong? gw linglung ya?"
"enggak kok, lo ga salah. lo mencoba jujur sama diri loe dan sama mereka"
hey, I just realized that, I'M TRYING TO BE HONEST WITH MY SELF & I CANNOT DO BOTH

so the point is clear, " I quit from my music course and the orchestra things, but not 100% stop playing. yes violin is always be my identity. I'm not a quitter. I'm just a girl who try to be honest with my self and wants to have a new experience of life in this world."
I will do my best to be the most independent and young business girl. Amiin

Hope's everything fine. and the last, do a thing that you love and always be honest to your self, because only our self can do it, no body can control you.

my "just for fun" art

well, this is what I do in my spare time. painting on a "already used" things. well except this tiny 3 wood spoons. not good enough hhe hope u enjoy. thank u my talented sister vantiani for the photos (available in her blog too)

haha

short post

hei there bloggers! how's your day? do you enjoy your day?
well, I'm struggling for everything this several days (weleh). I have no time for painting or translate my idea into an object. that's a real crime for me.
also, I've been working sooo hard for Neo Capella's concert. and I find it really tiring more than the other practice.

can't wait for it & also 27'th of May. ;D

have fun guys!

an evening with neo capella amadeus

been working so hard for this :) PLEASE COME~

A BIG PROUD

I'M SO PROUD TO SAY THAT....

SISWA SMA 62 JAKARTA TIMUR ADALAH SALAH SATU DARI 4 SEKOLAH YANG LULUS 100 %

SOOO PROUD OF YOU MY BROTHERS & SISTERS !!!

I heart Imogen Heap

I GOT A FREE TICKET TO IMOGEN HEAP CONCERT IN BALAI KARTINI! OMG OMG OMG ! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! ok enough! shit! damn! crazy! thank you Vantiani one of my best sister ever ! I got the best night for this month! yayayayayayaay! but sorry I didn't take any photo, I was too exhausted, too excited but there are some pictures from VIVAnews and Jakarta Post *enjoy. and I didn't pay attention for what I wore! yes, I was "almost" late to picked up my sister and her friend in Dharmawangsa. I wore a short, tang top and boyfriend shirt and sneakers plus socks! uuum not to stylish BUT I DON'T CARE! it was sssoooo comfie! SHIT I love her damn much! when I first saw the stage it was good, but when the show started... speechless
so many instruments, look at the piano, SUPERB! the opening act was AMAZING & SO CREATIVE GENIUS !! but I was annoyed by the other "underestimate" spectators behind me. the just didn't know that the music is so enchanting. and they said Imogen's costume is awful. WTF ??????? BUAT APA BELI TIKET MAHAL2 CUMA BUAT MENGOMENTARI ?? ok enough.
omg, it was amazing and the lighting is superb! we can feel the song only by the lighting! cool! and the tree is beautiful with the lights on. *pengen punya konser kayak gt ah. oiya! congrats for rachman noor! he is the winner for Imogen's cellist competition for a song called "aha!"I'M CRAZY FOR THAT SONG!
and the last, thank you Immi. I love you! please come back at the end of this year. my second sister will love you. please please please..

oiya if you want to go to a concert, and if you're gonna see it "standing" not "sitting", please do not wear high heels, don't be rude to your feet. you'll get tired. don't forget to eat first, or you will get stomach. wear a proper clothes! a comfie outfit! then you can jump and get crazy during the concert.

love you Immi :)

Antonio Violino = Antovio

Dear Antovio,

You've made my world so colorful. Thank you Antovio. disaat kita sedih sama2, disaat kita berjuang sama2, disaat kamu sakit, disaat aku sakit hati dan ga mau mainin kamu lagi. tapi kamu berarti. aku tau kamu lumutan nungguin aku mainin kamu di pojokan kamar, maafin akuu.

aku ga tau kenapa rasa yang bikin gondok ini datang lagi.

MAAFIN AKU ANTOVIO-KU :(

hei there hello there

hei guys what's up? what's our plan for this weekend? how was your daily activities this week? was it fun? or pretty boring. oooh.. GOSH. (ok I'm gonna blabla in bahasa)

minggu ini adalah minggu yang uring2an, ada saatnya gw super exhausted & ada momment yang buat gue bisa refresh pikiran dan PARTY tentunyaaaa!!! wuhuuuu!
tapi selamat dulu ni buat my lovely GITA SAWASDEE yang lolos festival paduan suara ITB XXII, kerja keras kita ga sia2 meeeen, gw yang begadang buat ngelengkapin segala embel2 kayak formulir, biodata, dll & temen2 yang pada bolos cuma buat transfer rekaman suara dr handy cam ke cd (rya,meri,rudi,handy,yogi) you're the best meeeeeen! sekarang kita berjuang untuk ke bandung dan lomba atma jaya! BEAT THEM!

gue juga udah memasuki tahap sulit dalam biola (lagi). entah kenapa makin hari gw makin berat dan males tentunya dan ngebuat guru gue emosian sama gw. well sorry kak. kata nyokap itu gara2 males gw. tapi menurut gw engga, ada sesuatu yang byat gw stuck total. gw kayak nikah ke semua hal2 yang gw lakuin itu tp kali ini gw pengen cerai dari mereka. kenapa? gw pun gataw (apalagi yang baca) kata si thalita gw banyak pikiran. iya kali ya?
gw jadi inget kata pembina EC "kalo mau sukses, pilh satu bidang"
tapi gw ga kayak gitu. gw orang yang penasaran & pengen tau. malah gw pengen bgtbgt jadi bagian Ghost Hunters di TAPS.
ada satu yang gw passionate bgt, SENI. parah, kata2 itu bener2 buat gw cinta mati melebihi yogi (hhe)
gue ditaklukin sama hal2 yang ada dalam seni, itu yang gw cinta. maka gw explore semua yang berhubungan sama seni. I love being creative, I love being sensitive about music. dan segala2nya.jadi intinya SENI adalah bagian yang SANGAT AMAT PENTING bagi hidup gw. gw cinta dia, dia yang mengajarkan semuanya dari gw kecil.

well curhatan gw panjang ye. hahahaha. maklum lagi stress
BUUH PENCERAHAN !!!
*anyone?

again!

hei guys! you know what? hot weather in Jakarta is always makes me stiflingly hot! So, I cutted my hair!!! wuhuuuuuuu I love my short cutted hair!

hei heii

hei guys! what's up! I know I haven't been posting anything for several days. FYI, I have a mid term test next week and also audition for vivaldi's songs. errrrg. so wish me luck guys.
sadly, I didn't make anything for my art project. I have no kanvas or anything but I have a lot of IDEA to paint! can't wait to translate my mind to the kanvas!
that's all for now guys, keep reading Polka Didot for more stories of my life and my art project.

have a good weekend!

I feel like nothing

I feel so empty inside..

why?

I feel like nothing..

why?

can somebody help me?

please..

I got trapped in this strange feeling..

Help..

Any one..

"................"

YAY!

congratulations to my team(hhe) of battle of brain (me, madyasta, and tasya)! we got the third place, well not bad right?
and also congratulations to my english club friends who joined the competition and also won!
congrats for ;
sekalihpa won 2nd place for news reading
banu won 2nd place for amazing story telling ( you're supposed to be the first winner maaan!)
meta won 2nd place for speech

also hendry and rahayu! don't be sad! you're our hope to the next generation of english club!

EXITED

and FYI I'm gonna have a SHORT HAIR CUT!

I WANT IT SOO BAD!

OMG SO DISAPPOINTED !

what do you feel if your parents judge you?
What should we do next?



BAD MOOD -.-

what a busy girl

hey guys! what's up! sorry for leaving you for several days hhe :)
by the way, this week is the most fun week! Surprised my hubby Mr. Yogi and my adorable friend Mr. Rudy . hha hope you liked it guys!

I also got a lot of "project" ;
- battle of brain competition from 44 senior high school
- choir from ITB. WOW!
- violin concert on May

wish me luck guys, hope your days are same as mine !

CIIAAAAW

what a tuesday!

just got this picture from photobucket. I LOVE IT *blushing

ok, I'm gonna do this real quick, what a fun day! someone got a braces! (behel boy hha), taught news reading and spelling bee in English club, freakin' english test, and many more!
nice day everyone!


* PS : got a something today from someone (hhi) *blushing :* ----> SMOOCH!